Oh, the holidays!!
After a night of tears, I’m finally feeling the holiday cheer. So, exactly why was I crying last night? Well, for those of you who don’t know I lost my father seven years ago and this time of year was a family favorite. The moments to be shared brought us excitement and made our bond stronger and closer than ever. Our house is filled with delicious food, holiday music, and nights of watching our favorite holiday movies.
Yesterday, being December 1st, I could not help but look back on memories of beautiful old photographs of a time that brought much joy. Each year, my mom and I gather up old Christmas cards and put them up on the wall by the Christmas tree. Well, we haven’t purchased our tree just yet we just but we have gathered up our cards from storage. I know when you lose a love one their memory will never be forgotten. It’s just hard to not cry knowing that the one person so dear in your heart is not here to celebrate another special moment.
As you may guess, I had a really strong bond with my father. He is my hero, my teacher, ultimately my best friend. Every year after Thanksgiving he would surprise my brother and I with an early Christmas gift (typically something he knows that we really want [but may not necessarily need], and, waited throughout the year for us to prove to him that we deserve it). He would come home with a box of our favorite sweet treats for us to enjoy and take us to Lake Tahoe to see the snow and to ski. He would sing his favorite song "The Christmas Song" by Nat King Cole making us all smile. He would take us to Vegas not only because he and my mother loved to gamble but also for my brother and I to enjoy all the Christmas decorations and have a wonderful mini vacation before we spend time home with all our Christmas presents and with family. As the years have gone by my mom had not really done the same thing as we had done in the past because it became too emotional for us.
But, I know this year will be just as great because I still have loved ones here with me that will always remind me that somewhere in spirit my father is celebrating the holidays with us. Whether it is with music, food, or movies.
Enough, with my sad talk. Happy December everybody!! I hope you have a wonderful month and wishing much happiness to you all!! May all your wishes this month come true!!
Cancer Explaining The Silly Things They Do With Their Partner…
Walking around Redondo Beach Pier with my brothers.
Love Rod!! Always the first album to be played on family road trips. <3